Sunday, December 18, 2011

Christmas Letters...

Have you got people who update you with their latest adventures through Machu Pichu or Chiang Mao? What about the one-way update on their kids..and the long list of amazing accomplishments saving third world villages whilst earning their second degree...or their 4 year old has started reading War and Peace? ...And then in this same letter I get to hear they built their dream house on acreage...professionally decorated....

Yes...I am venting...and not because I am vying for their life.... It was probably just my head space. I had a great summer...I explored the Sip n' Dip in Great Falls, Montana. One finished school and started a career...one set off for adventure while waiting for immigration status... We have also had some down sides to this year. My tolerance for chaos increased exponentially...and not because I wanted it to. I have been stretched beyond measure in patience. I have learned several new skills and mastered a few as well. Anxiety over health lulled until the end of the year...I am now looking through my trunk to find the coping skills I acquired by necessity.

so...this is my Christmas letter....accomplishments with disappointments....highs and lows....my reality.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Waiting for 100

Whilst my daughter is "Waiting for 100" (her blog) we are missing her and Andrew. We decorated the tree...they rode a train through Thailand. We supped on appetizers that included peanut butter rice krispie treat with chocolate....she ate things of unknown origin. We probably did as well...but we are sublime in our ignorance. Days weeks, months and years seem to speed by at such a pace to make one's head spin...and in our house .... a sign of fragility.

Mothering has not ended on Lyon Road....There is plenty of nag left in me... but it is with a caution at the realization that I really have little affect on the spin of their lives now. I can control my environment....but only for a moment....for I have known the fleeting moment of security is but that.... and then it changes....